dying a 1000 deaths

Caught in it bad, can't see the light right now
torn to pieces with no recognition of self
wailing, shivering, heavy heart
when will the pain subside?
every cell infused with your memory
Just when i thought i flushed you from my system,
the dis-ease moves to another location
our magical love affair must take new form
but it's resisting a new definition

when will the pain ease, just a little so i can breathe
i'm told it takes time, but time is irrelevant right now

love is not for the weak-hearted
digging deep and pulling back layers, where i'm entirely exposed
this is where love resides
body modification, flesh offering